Tajun viimasel ajal kui õnnistatud ja rahul ma olen. Elu käib siia-sinna ja selles elumeres on lained, mis aeg-ajalt käivad üle pea, kuid minu sees on rahu. Rahu selles, et Jumal kannab mind läbi. Et Jumal on minu ellu pannud just need inimesed, kes seal on. Et Jumal kontrollib neid olukordi, mis mu elus. Et ma ei pea muretsema.
Järgmisel nädalal saan 30-aastaseks. Ma pean tunnistama, et see on kõige ilusam ja põnevam aeg minu elus. Just sellepärast, milliseks inimeseks Jumal on mind vorminud ja vormimas on. Jumal on hea!
Ja nüüd hakkasid ka Alfa-kursused, kus ma köögis kaasa aitan ja mõne loengu pean. Teiste teenimine, ja just kirikus, on palsam mu hingele! Tänu Jumalale ka selle eest!
Olla Jumala tahtes ja otsida Jumala tahet, see on Tema eriline arm! Võin julgelt öelda - ma olen õnnistatud! Tänu Jumalale selle eest!
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26.9.10
3.8.10
What is the result of peace?
What is the result of peace? It is:
- contentment;
- safty and comfort;
- tranquility;
- salvation, peace with God and myself;
- permanent peace, peace that stays through the storms of life.
Peace is knowing and trusting that God provides.
Do you have peace? If not, what is missing?
18.7.10
Today was a fairytale
Maybe it is the vacation coming up, maybe it is getting to the point where I get rid of all the things, thoughts and expectations that I felt kind of weighying on my heart, but I am starting to feel like myself again.
I feel like I lost myself for quite a long time and I am starting to find myself bit by bit again. I feel like discovering things about myself I never knew about and that I can honestly say I had no clue, no experience about.
Where did I loose myself?
I lost myself in love and all the expectations, dreams, beliefs and religious correct views about it. I lost myself in another person and constantly trying to find the balance between who he needed and wanted me to be, who I wanted to be and who I thought God wanted me to be.
I lost myself in working too much, building up something I believed in and fighted for yet totally not noticing that the circumstances around me had changed. I lost myself starting to believe some people because I thought they were nice and had good motives. I shut my eyes for selfishness and found excuses the justify it all.
I lost myself in being scared of living and taking risks - being scared of making mistakes because I was supposed to be this good Christian girl living according to the book. I lost myself trying to be this perfect Christian yet not knowing that God doesn`t want us to be perfect but wants us to love Him so that his love changes us just by itsef.
I lost myself in some people always pointing out the bad sides about me and telling me that I am this and that (which was true) and not the Christian I should be or appear to be. I lost myself feeling helpless in letting God change things in my life that needed changing.
I lost myself in believing that God wanted me to be certain way and living certain way, lost myself believing that I am not an individual, a human being, but this CHRISTIAN who has to be and act certain way and who is allowed to feel and think certaing way. I lost myself being a Christian puppet and not real me. I lost myself in being lifeless doll rather than a child loved by her Father, the God. I lost myself in religion.
I lost myself in trying to help people all the time, trying to listen to and care for their problems and worries. I lost myself in minding with other peoples lives rather than building up mine.
I lost myself in NOT BELIEVING that God wants the best future possible for me, I lost myself having this huge burden that Christian life is all about sacrifice and no fun at all. I lost myself in seriousness.
I lost myself in pride and thinking that I know better! I lost myself in believing that I know all the answers to life and I lost myself in giving that advice to others.
So how lost was I? You tell me! It looks to me like pretty lost!
But I was lost and now I am found! God has helped me find myself!
22.4.10
No vacancy in Trinity...
Time to time I rediscover Dr Emerson Eggerichs book "The Love She Most Desires. The Respect He Desperately Needs". This week I have been reading it once again in the mornings before going to work.Eggerichs writes: Many women have admitted to me: "I`ve got to stop being my husband`s Holy Spirit." I agree with them because there is no vacancy in the Trinity.
When I read the truth, it hit me hard. I have never been married, but in the past I have tryed to be the Holy Spirit to my boyfriend.
Piret remember - there is no vacancy in the Trinity!! :)
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