1. Soul healing is putting your pride aside and acting intentionally to overcome the soul wounds that make you wound your partner;
2. Resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die /Malachy McCourt/.
24.1.09
21.1.09
Honesty and Forgiveness
How heavy is a glass of water? It depends how long you have to hold it in your hands. One minut is not a problem, but after holding it for many hours, your hand might start to ache. After 24 hours the way you feel will be propable very bad. Actually at every hour the glass of water weights the same, but the longer you are holding it, the heavyer it seems. It is the same way with heatred. Carrying it might turn out to be so heavy that it paralyses all your life.
This week I have been seriously talking with my mother. Some of the things we have been sharing go back in childhood and I have discovered that there are some things that have been broken and need to be fixed. I can honestly say, that those things are influencing who I am today.
I was watching Oprah show one day and she said - feelings are time travellers and they dont go away just because you get older! I never really thought that this woman was the light of truth, but it made sence to me...she was talking about grown ups from divorced families...
I think it is time to let go of some things. It is time to let go of the heavy glass of the past. But the first thing is to really understand what is my heavy glass and let God heal what is there.
It seems to me, that it is a period of time in my life where I am experiencing God more peronally. Not that He is someone who wants me to do something for Him. Yes, that too, but today it seems that He is helping me to look inside of me and says - I know what is there. I know why it is there. I see your feelings and pain, and I understand. But it is time for you to trust me as your personal Saviour and let me take away from your heart the things that do not belong there anymore! I have created a new creation in you and I have given you new life, a new chance! Use it!
God is teaching me to look inside of me and be honest about it! Not blame others, but to forgive them! Not question God, but thank Him for carrying me through this! But to do that, I have to be brutally honest about myself and my feelings. I have to stop hiding those feelings from myself and just not being afraid of feeling the way I do....
Honesty and forgivenes.... it looks like I have a valuable lesson to learn there...
This week I have been seriously talking with my mother. Some of the things we have been sharing go back in childhood and I have discovered that there are some things that have been broken and need to be fixed. I can honestly say, that those things are influencing who I am today.
I was watching Oprah show one day and she said - feelings are time travellers and they dont go away just because you get older! I never really thought that this woman was the light of truth, but it made sence to me...she was talking about grown ups from divorced families...
I think it is time to let go of some things. It is time to let go of the heavy glass of the past. But the first thing is to really understand what is my heavy glass and let God heal what is there.
It seems to me, that it is a period of time in my life where I am experiencing God more peronally. Not that He is someone who wants me to do something for Him. Yes, that too, but today it seems that He is helping me to look inside of me and says - I know what is there. I know why it is there. I see your feelings and pain, and I understand. But it is time for you to trust me as your personal Saviour and let me take away from your heart the things that do not belong there anymore! I have created a new creation in you and I have given you new life, a new chance! Use it!
God is teaching me to look inside of me and be honest about it! Not blame others, but to forgive them! Not question God, but thank Him for carrying me through this! But to do that, I have to be brutally honest about myself and my feelings. I have to stop hiding those feelings from myself and just not being afraid of feeling the way I do....
Honesty and forgivenes.... it looks like I have a valuable lesson to learn there...
15.1.09
Good Shepherd (Psalm 23)
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousnessfor his name's sake.
Even though I walkthrough the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil,for you are with me; your rod and your staff,they comfort me.
You prepare a table before mein the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil;my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow meall the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
When shepherd takes care of the sheep, he uses rod and the staff. God also uses the rod (Word of God) and the staff (Spirit of God) to guide us.
Many times God leads us through the valley of death. We cannot go around it, we cannot go over it or besides it. We have to go through, but He has promises to be always with us even at the bottom of the valley. God promises to take care of our needs even down in that valley. He knows that when I go through this, I am scared. He is big enough to handle my deepest fears and personal enough to care about my needs. He does not leave me, but He shows how big He really is.
God also promises to restore my soul. He does care that the life that has been taken into pieces would be put together. But God is interesting in that sence. He does not put together the old, he creates something totally new. I should not even want God to restore things the way they were. God is more gracious than that. He gives new beginnings and directs our stept the way He sees is better for us to go. He gives us new life every step of the way!
God also promises to hold my future secure. He cares for what will happen to me and when my future plans vanish away or do not come true, he gives me new opportunities and brings me closer to him through that. I think this is one of the most appealing things for me about being a Christian - you can always learn so much and every step of the way is exciting and you discover the world and God in totally new, deeper way. God cares for our dreams and hopes, but He does not want us to hope for and dream of things that are not good for us and do not bring glory to His name.
But what if I am scared while travelling in the valley of darkness, what should I do? I have to anticode my worst fear by:
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousnessfor his name's sake.
Even though I walkthrough the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil,for you are with me; your rod and your staff,they comfort me.
You prepare a table before mein the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil;my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow meall the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
- He promises to provide for my needs;
- He promises to restore my soul;
- He promises to guide me;
- He promises to be present in my darkest valley;
- He promises me comfort when I face evil;
- He promises to hold my future secure.
When shepherd takes care of the sheep, he uses rod and the staff. God also uses the rod (Word of God) and the staff (Spirit of God) to guide us.
Many times God leads us through the valley of death. We cannot go around it, we cannot go over it or besides it. We have to go through, but He has promises to be always with us even at the bottom of the valley. God promises to take care of our needs even down in that valley. He knows that when I go through this, I am scared. He is big enough to handle my deepest fears and personal enough to care about my needs. He does not leave me, but He shows how big He really is.
God also promises to restore my soul. He does care that the life that has been taken into pieces would be put together. But God is interesting in that sence. He does not put together the old, he creates something totally new. I should not even want God to restore things the way they were. God is more gracious than that. He gives new beginnings and directs our stept the way He sees is better for us to go. He gives us new life every step of the way!
God also promises to hold my future secure. He cares for what will happen to me and when my future plans vanish away or do not come true, he gives me new opportunities and brings me closer to him through that. I think this is one of the most appealing things for me about being a Christian - you can always learn so much and every step of the way is exciting and you discover the world and God in totally new, deeper way. God cares for our dreams and hopes, but He does not want us to hope for and dream of things that are not good for us and do not bring glory to His name.
But what if I am scared while travelling in the valley of darkness, what should I do? I have to anticode my worst fear by:
- Going to my worst fear and dealing with it, not running away or hiding from it;
- Reminding myself of the Shepherd`s character;
- Turning my panic to praise. T
WHAT IS MY PERSONAL BIGGEST FEAR?
Maybe being left alone, being lonely? Don`t know...I am still trying to find out and and detect my worst fear....
Hope to discover it soon..
14.1.09
KEEP ON
by Donald Seltzer
I know what you are going through. I know it is not what you expected nor planned for. From the very beginning, I have walked through this with you and I am with you now! I am your Good Shepherd
And I will never leave you nor abandan you.
You are never alone!
I know there are times when you are filled with fear,
but remember - I will guide you and keep you steady.
I know there are things that cause you worry or anxiety,
but I want you to know that I have promised to provide
for you and all your needs.
When things are unclea, I will be your wisdom...
when things are overwhelming, I will be your strength.
When things are stressful, I will be your rest.
I love you completely! I am the Shephered of your Soul!
I want you to trust Me with your future
I will do what is good and what is best.
You are safe with Me! Keep on with My Love!
I AM THE GOOD SHEPHERD (John 10:11)
3.1.09
I have been hit by the truth
I can truly honestly say, that the last week has changed me! I cannot express enough how those young people in the camp encouraged me and how much I had to learn from them!
Even this Christmas and some hard talks with my mum have brought me clarity of who I am and how little I bother to take time to look at myself from outside!
But about the camp....
You see, many times you think you go and lead something. But then the table is turned the other way around and you realize that all you can do is just be yourself and learn from others!
I am so thankful to all those young people I had the opportunity to meet! And my co-leader Helari! Ahh, I learned so much from you! Your faith and devotion, desire to love and serve others is just so admireable!
God really taught me some basic things again....I just keep forgetting them, but He keeps reminding me. That is called grace!
It has been an amazing time of looking inside of ME and realizing that:
1. I have bad attitute and heart like a stone - my pride gets on the way of really being who I was created to be! On one side I want to help people and make an impact in this world. On the other side I am always thinking of how will I be praised and thanked for what I do.
I definately did learn the meaning of servant leadership and that the only way you can lead people is not pushing your own ideas and thought on them, but helping others discover their strenghts and encouraging them to step out and be at the upfront! A good leader is willing to step back, tie together the loose ends, see that all that is happening would form a nice unity, that peoples needs would be met individually yet the common goal would be reached!
A good leader quarantees a positive and encouraging atmosphere for all that! Good leader is like a clue holding everything together!
2. My heart has been broken so that I could understand better when Christ was broken on the cross and so that I could understand better the brokenness of others!
Wow, that hit me like a bomb this New Years Eve! I have been focusing on being disappointed all this year that I did not realize that it is one of the biggest lessons of my life!
My own brokenness has been used for the benefit of others and that is just so beautiful! I do believe from the bottom of my heart that nothing happens in this life for no reason at all!
Everything we experience, all the difficulties, are the opportunities to learn and get closer to God! I am so thankful for all the lessons and my group!
I have been just amazed by being part of it all and seeing how great things happen, how peoples lives and attitutes are changed, mine included. And the result is rewarding!
Like the moto of the camp said - Be bold to shine! I want to shine! I hope this new year will be learning all this in even more depth! I hope I learn to shine more!
Thank you so much: Helari, Helina, Jürgen, Illimar, Gaspar, Pirgit, Merike, Saara, Kaur, Kristjan, Triinu. You are the best!
Happier Piret :)
Even this Christmas and some hard talks with my mum have brought me clarity of who I am and how little I bother to take time to look at myself from outside!
But about the camp....
You see, many times you think you go and lead something. But then the table is turned the other way around and you realize that all you can do is just be yourself and learn from others!
I am so thankful to all those young people I had the opportunity to meet! And my co-leader Helari! Ahh, I learned so much from you! Your faith and devotion, desire to love and serve others is just so admireable!
God really taught me some basic things again....I just keep forgetting them, but He keeps reminding me. That is called grace!
It has been an amazing time of looking inside of ME and realizing that:
1. I have bad attitute and heart like a stone - my pride gets on the way of really being who I was created to be! On one side I want to help people and make an impact in this world. On the other side I am always thinking of how will I be praised and thanked for what I do.
I definately did learn the meaning of servant leadership and that the only way you can lead people is not pushing your own ideas and thought on them, but helping others discover their strenghts and encouraging them to step out and be at the upfront! A good leader is willing to step back, tie together the loose ends, see that all that is happening would form a nice unity, that peoples needs would be met individually yet the common goal would be reached!
A good leader quarantees a positive and encouraging atmosphere for all that! Good leader is like a clue holding everything together!
2. My heart has been broken so that I could understand better when Christ was broken on the cross and so that I could understand better the brokenness of others!
Wow, that hit me like a bomb this New Years Eve! I have been focusing on being disappointed all this year that I did not realize that it is one of the biggest lessons of my life!
My own brokenness has been used for the benefit of others and that is just so beautiful! I do believe from the bottom of my heart that nothing happens in this life for no reason at all!
Everything we experience, all the difficulties, are the opportunities to learn and get closer to God! I am so thankful for all the lessons and my group!
I have been just amazed by being part of it all and seeing how great things happen, how peoples lives and attitutes are changed, mine included. And the result is rewarding!
Like the moto of the camp said - Be bold to shine! I want to shine! I hope this new year will be learning all this in even more depth! I hope I learn to shine more!
Thank you so much: Helari, Helina, Jürgen, Illimar, Gaspar, Pirgit, Merike, Saara, Kaur, Kristjan, Triinu. You are the best!
Happier Piret :)
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